Tuesday, April 19, 2011

Confused and sad

I still had a faint positive this morning and after realizing that my booster trigger was only 2,500 units, not 5,000 units, it's pretty clear that I was actually pregnant. It may have been short lived, but there was a little one there, but it wasn't meant to be. I am so incredibly sad and I know that I shouldn't be, but I am. The reality is, it's good news. I was actually able to get pregnant for the first time in over 2 years of trying, something worked. It's just the weirdest feeling to think that I might have actually been pregnant, even if it was for only a few days.

I am supposed to go in for a beta on Thursday just to make sure that everything is ok. I suspect that they are still concerned about ectopic pregnancy, but they aren't telling me that. I am sure it will be negative, but it will be a good thing to do just to know for sure that it is over.

5 comments:

  1. My heart is heavy for you LG. =(
    -OCW2010/Diane

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  2. I'm so sorry, L. Even if it is good news medically that you can get pregnant, it's still very sad and of course you are mourning the loss. I wish I could offer some words of comfort. I am keeping the faith that you WILL get pregnant and bring home a beautiful baby. (((hugs)))

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  3. ((hugs)) I am thinking about you LGL. <3

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  4. I'm so sorry LG, Wish there was something to be said to make you feel better - but we all know that there is nothing. ((HUGS))

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