I tested this morning and it was negative. I'm 14 days post ovulation (dpo) so there is virtually no chance that I got pregnant this cycle. To top it off, Tim is visiting his family this weekend in Montana so I'm alone and he is hanging out with his 2 little nephews. He told me last night how cute the boys are and I could hear the hope in his voice. I hate myself for not being able to give him a child and I wonder if he will start to hate me for it too.